on a new road

Sorry I haven't posted in a while. I have had a lot of things going on lately. It turns out it's just life happening. And it's as it should be. it's been almost a year that I have been in treatment for my PTSD. I believe that I have learned very excellent coping skills. With the help of my very wonderful therapist I can do what I need to do. That is to live my life the best I can. I will still have some bumps in the road along the way. Those thoughts and feelings that go along with dealing with a horrible trauma will always be there. I have learned that I can keep going with them there. This blog was a great way for me to get my thoughts and feelings out during my treatment. I'm not done with therapy just yet. I still have some goals to accomplish. We are going to start spacing my appointments out. I will be trying to incorporate helping others into my plan. I survived!!!! I have a life to be happy about. My husband is awesome, my kids are beautiful. I am happy about my family life. Now instead of being alive and hiding from life, I'm learning how to thrive!!! I have learned one of the most difficult lesson life can offer...... we aren't promised anything!! One day in a blink of an eye all you hold dear can be taken away. I'm going to have a 40th birthday this year. And before I get too old to do anything, I have goals to accomplish. I will be putting my focus on other things. So I wanted to take this time to thank all of you who have followed this blog. I have appreciated all the comments. Your support was a source of strength for me as I was feeling my way back to life. This blog was indeed a lifeline for me. It kept me connected. I have discovered the road to healing. I'm on it. I can't wait to see where it will be taking me. As with various things in life, things last for a season. And this blog has had it's season. I have to move forward on to other things. I have so much still to do. So I won't be posting anymore. Please feel free to leave a comment. I will be checking in from time to time. Thank You!!!!  As you all journey through your lives, Don't forget to stop and smell the flowers!!!! That kind of simple act will a long way to refreshing your spirit in times of difficulty.  Lots of Love to All!!!!!!!!!

fine

Good day, I am feeling much better today. So far no headache. Hopefully I will stay that way. Yesterday went pretty well. Not much of anything exciting went on. Just the normal stuff. But that was okay with me. I slept well last night. No bad dreams!!! I can't tell you how happy that makes me. I don't have anything planned for today. I will just see how the day unfolds. I just wanted to check in. I will post later.

nice day

 Yesterday morning I woke up feeling bad. I had another nightmare. It was very disturbing. For some reason they seem to be happening frequently. I talked about it with Mike. But it was still bothersome. Anyway we had a morning date. We had to take his car to the shop, and I had to take my nephew to school. So I asked him to go out with me to a really cute coffee shop downtown. We sat at a table for 2 and had breakfast. It was so nice. We both were smiling the whole time. We had an hour to ourselves and it was great!!! Later in the day we went to the river to see how the water was flowing. We all went. That was really nice too. It has rained a good bit lately, so the water levels were up. The rocks we normally sat on were pretty much unreachable. The sound was awesome. I had also been fighting a pretty bad headache all day. That part was not so good. But I tried to just hang on to the good stuff going on. I really enjoyed my time with Mike. We both agree that we need to do things like that once in awhile. Today I still have the headache, but I'm feeling good about everything else. I just wanted to check in and tell you that my plan worked out beautifully for Mike and I to get some quality time together.